jeemy's Revelife

the blood on your hands

Sat, 28 Jun 2008 04:37:04 GMT

lifeless corpses scatter the battlefield. the brown earth has tuned to the color of blood. the sky has turned black, still the battle wages on.

horrified to see our own soldiers turning on themselves, dismembering each other, the brutality of the attack. unmatched hate, settling for nothing less than the most painful way to kill.

open your eyes, cant you see what you are doing? you say you are one of the elect, but you have no love for one another. this is not how it is to be done, cant you see the damage you've caused. does that not bother you, the blood on your hands?

my Father said "they will know you are Mine if you have love for one another" decide who you stand with. the judgment is coming and you will be dealt with. the choice is yours, will you live, or be one of the corpses?

jeremy may 15 2008

here i am

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 03:35:20 GMT

You want me, here i am. i make no effort to hide who i am, i know You know, who i am. that i dont trust, have very few friends, and none are close. i am the outcast, the weird kid that just doesnt fit. i know You made me this way, but why?

why did you create me like this? what do you have for me that i have to be this way? im tired of this, feeling alone and cold, wishing it's not just me. ive done this for too long, i dont like the way i see the world, and the people in it.

but if this is Your will then so be it, give me the strength to follow no matter what. You want me, here i am. i am Your's, and always will be.

jeremy may 13 2008

this being

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 03:33:12 GMT

i hate you, this being i fail to put to death. you take everything from me, my love, my faith, my strength. you smell of death, and are full of hate. your happiness guides your every action.

you care for nothing, and no one but yourself. you do not love only hate. you live for nothing and will die for the same.

yes, i hate you, i am weak, not dead. i may be losing but i have not lost. i hate you, and will conquer you.

for you, you are me
[Colossians 3]
jeremy may 10 2008

the faithless to the faithful

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 00:47:59 GMT

so within four days i've buried two animals, has nothin to do with the rest of this post, just annoying.

i am just a shadow of the person You desire me to be. i am not the faithful, the honest, the strongest. i am the faithless, the liar, the weakest. still You stand by me, when i cannot walk, You carry me. when i fall, You pick me up, when i have no strength, You give me Yours.

why? i don't understand, how do You love me. why did You give me everything. when i was incapable of love, when i was incapable of giving.

so this is what i ask. give me a passion to know You, to give You glory, to do Your will. You gave the unthinkable to save me. i'm trying to give You all i am.

jeremy june 22 2008

how long

Sun, 22 Jun 2008 20:56:19 GMT

i've grown tired of this life, this world, i don't belong here. the pain i feel does not fade, the brokenness simply will not mend. the struggle never gets easier, only harder.

how long must i stay here, how long must i feel this pain? my strength is gone, i don't want to feel anymore. i don't want to be here, this is not my home.

i'm losing the will to fight this, i am losing this. so i cry how long o Lord, i long to see Your face.

jeremy may 10 2008

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 05:37:38 GMT

i havent thought of a name for this yet

blood flows freely from this broken body, take a step back to inspect the damage you have inflicted. decide its not enough, continue the beating. the smell of blood, and the noise of snapping bone only fuels your lust for death and destruction.

covered in blood, full of rage, hate seeps from your very being. now you are pleased with your handy work, the pool of blood, the distorted shape the body was never made to withstand, the exposed bone, the flesh barely hanging on.

but something disturbs you. you look on my face and see a light in my eyes. stunned, as i stand and hold my hand out to you.

beat me over and over again, yet somehow i am still able to stand. you pour out your rage and hate upon me in an attempt to quench this spark of life.

with one last strike, i take my last breath. i was ready for this day for so long. you think you have won, you have no idea of the change that will take place now.

jeremy may 4 2008

perfect fact

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 05:34:00 GMT

a silent scream, a quiet desire, the longing to be held, to be loved. in this world where nothing is real, love is thrown to the side as unnecessary, and friendship is measured by what you can get out of it.

is this the way you choose to live? will you continue down this damned road, that only leads to pain and destruction.

or will you choose to reject what the world shoves down your throat, everything it claims is perfect fact. will you blindly accept everything it says, or will you dig for the truth, the very thing the world desires to destroy?

jeremy may 4 2008

“Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.”
-Matthew 7: 13, 14

once again

Wed, 18 Jun 2008 04:33:31 GMT

ok it's almost been two years since my grandfather died, so this is for him my best friend.

once again this memory

once again this picture

once again this pain

once again these tears

once again these questions

once again wondering why

once again hating this feeling

once again hating not knowing

once again sitting and thinking

once again asking for Your help

once again asking for Your help. i need You, please help me.

jeremy june 15 2008
you may have been my father's stepdad, but you always have and always will be my grandfather. i love you and miss you.

illusion

Fri, 13 Jun 2008 06:34:08 GMT

this false illusion that we build our life on. these lies that tell us what it is right, wrong, and how to live. how would we live if we could really see this world? we claim to know the Truth, but we still do not see the world as it truly is. for the darkness is clothed in beauty and its way is easy.

but if we could see the war unseen. if we could see the result of our actions and words, if you are stabbed by a knife the wound is clearly seen. words are not so kind, words will leave you broken and gasping for breath, and still no one knows.

if we could see past this illusion and see the world as it is. if you could see the pain this world hides, would you fight this war the way you do now?

Jeremy april 27 2008

cry to the children of a lesser name

Fri, 13 Jun 2008 06:32:01 GMT

girl you look for a love you cant find. it is not found at home, maybe you feel hated in your own house. you look for it in a guy, but in the end your left hurt, broken, and used.

listen to me, you will not find what you long for in these. people will fail and hurt you, the numbness of the pills, alcohol, sex, and cutting will fade. the only place you will find the love you seek is in the arms of Christ. the Father to the fatherless, the Hope to the hopeless, the Life to the dead.

you can brake free from these chains, these lies that this world spits. you are a beautiful creation, designed by the One who painted the sky, and the changing leaves. you are not worthless you are worth the very life of the Son of the Most High.

boy you fight for the respect of your peers. your told all that matters is sex, and money and it doesnt matter how you get it. you lie, cheat, and steal to get what you want. your, emotion is weakness, and relationships are worthless. you show no respect to those of the opposite sex, treat them like they're worthless objects only here for sex.

but something doesnt feel right, does it? somethings missing, there is little comfort in sex and money. but there is relief in Jesus name.

this is my cry to you children of a lesser name, reject and rise above this world. boy stand up and be a man, treat women with respect, as creations of the living God. take your place as the leader you are called to be, seek justice, and stand for the weak and oppressed. girl stand up and be a woman you want respect then respect yourself. watch what you wear and how you act. do not lower the standards of whom you date, there is no substitute for a man with a heart of God and respect of you.

will you stand and be counted, there need be only one to change the world. will you join us, the faithful few. if you do, know the world will hate and reject you. this is not an easy life, you cannot survive our way of life without total surrender to Christ.

but if you do, if you give all that is yourself and trust wholly in Christ. you will overcome, and in Christ you will have a joy that nothing else can compare.

Jeremy april 22 2008

2 Corinthians 6

1As God's fellow workers we urge you not to receive God's grace in vain. 2For he says,
"In the time of my favor I heard you,
and in the day of salvation I helped you." I tell you, now is the time of God's favor, now is the day of salvation.

Paul's Hardships

3We put no stumbling block in anyone's path, so that our ministry will not be discredited. 4Rather, as servants of God we commend ourselves in every way: in great endurance; in troubles, hardships and distresses; 5in beatings, imprisonments and riots; in hard work, sleepless nights and hunger; 6in purity, understanding, patience and kindness; in the Holy Spirit and in sincere love; 7in truthful speech and in the power of God; with weapons of righteousness in the right hand and in the left; 8through glory and dishonor, bad report and good report; genuine, yet regarded as impostors; 9known, yet regarded as unknown; dying, and yet we live on; beaten, and yet not killed; 10sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; poor, yet making many rich; having nothing, and yet possessing everything.

11We have spoken freely to you, Corinthians, and opened wide our hearts to you. 12We are not withholding our affection from you, but you are withholding yours from us. 13As a fair exchange—I speak as to my children—open wide your hearts also.

Do Not Be Yoked With Unbelievers

14Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness? 15What harmony is there between Christ and Belial? What does a believer have in common with an unbeliever? 16What agreement is there between the temple of God and idols? For we are the temple of the living God. As God has said: "I will live with them and walk among them, and I will be their God, and they will be my people."
17"Therefore come out from them
      and be separate, says the Lord.
   Touch no unclean thing,
      and I will receive you."
18"I will be a Father to you,
      and you will be my sons and daughters, says the Lord Almighty."